I am such a fool.

My heart is Yours….. My heart is Yours…..
Help me protect this fragile heart.

honestly

Lord, I cannot love them. I don’t want to try anymore.

They’ve hurt me too much.

17 Jul

I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care

13 Jul

strong hands

he must have strong hands.

12 Jul

the worst

can you please respond to my texts.

i’m getting fucking annoyed.

you treat people like shit, yet people praise you for the relationships that do work out.

6 Jul

is it just me

I thought this whole time you were angry at me.
I thought this whole time you were annoyed with me.

I was hurt because you would never open up to me whenever I’d share if you were okay.

"How are you?"
"I’m good!"

IT was always the same. And I felt hurt because I felt like I was not good enough to be your friend.

So I shut you out of my life. I stopped trying to talk to you.

And today, I find out what happened.

I can only cry, and mourn on your behalf.

My heart aches… and even though you did hurt me, I realize that I haven’t been the persistent friend I should have been.

Lord….. please be with my friend. I don’t know if he’s actually over it or not, but may You continue to watch over him with your warm embrace.

22 Jun

~@~

distractions, distractions, distractions.

why do you go to church? why do you come every week? why did you do everything BUT commit? who is Jesus to you? do you love Him? do you talk to people the way you do because you want to genuinely get to know them? do you have a heart for people? are you passionate about anything in life? do you purposely act like you don’t enjoy anything?

my curiosity cannot contain itself.

1 Jun

I am so in love with You, there is no one else for me

Here I am desperately trying to erase him out of my heart.
But I realize that I’m focusing on doing the wrong thing.
I need to focus on loving the One who loves me ever so deeply.

I realize I’m a very passionate person.

My future spouse needs to be willing to give 200% in the things that he loves.

I really hope that he’ll be willing to give 200% to Jesus, because I know that I’m definitely wired up that way.

2 Apr

BLAH

this guy came to my english class today.
i wouldn’t bat an eye usually, but DAMN was he cute.

on top of that he’s tall, and a business major.
apparently worked 100+ hours at his internship this past summer, and he’s set for life.

i thought i didn’t care about money, but now that i think about my dreams and what i want for my future family….
it seems like money is an important factor.

sigh. if only he loved Jesus. if only i had a chance….

17 Mar