sometimes there’s things you gotta say regardless of how it’ll make them feel.
because it’s the truth. and you love them. and you want them to grow.
did you play the song I just attempted and gave up on.
stop playing with my mind.
God, help me guard my heart…
wake within me.
you’re the one that I love
and I’m saying goodbye
today he grabbed my arm in a gesture of goodbye.
there were not words spoken, but that simple touch was filled with so much meaning as it meant goodbye. glee immediately filled my heart.
want to be friends with him.
maybe from there something could happen.
the emotions are flooding into my heart once again.
that my heart was beating erratically tonight as we talked
it was pounding so hard,
I thought my heartbeat was going to explode out of my chest.
I couldn’t look at you,
but to prove to myself I was over you I stared into your eyes
and found myself grinning from ear to ear.
are these just the feelings of a fool?
or are they something real
because surely, I don’t feel like this with others
I wouldn’t want to go if it meant I could stay here and just get to know him better and that there’s something between us that You desire.
God, help me.
the wind is blowing in from the east.
change is afoot, and my heart comes to a slow and steady beat.
there is a war raging inside of me,
and my heart and flesh cry out.
well…. in my dreams.
I think I’m over you, but that dream made me feel happy for some reason.
I shared that I didn’t try to become close friends with you due to my feelings, and you accepted that.
I guess it’s because we became friends that I felt so happy.
piss me off.
stop thinking about yourself and think about what will benefit everyone in that moment.